driving is good for the soul

Currently listening to Maria Mena

I used to hate driving but now I love it. Driving is so relaxing just going down the turnpike with the windows open, the chilly breeze blowing in, and an epic mix of music blasting you have so much time to think about what is going on in your life. What I thought about was disconnection. I feel like I have been disconnecting myself from people, not on purpose but just because things happen. Recently I have been letting some friends down by, what else but, overbooking myself. I absolutely hate making a promise and not keeping it. So now I have to put back together things that I may or may not have messed up and stop focusing on relationships that don't matter. I need to focus on the people and friends that I love. Obsessing over one relationship can ruin all your others so my goal for this week is to obsess over all of the ones that matter instead of just on one relationship that does not.
Well I am home back in the Burg with my car!!!! A few weeks ago my car went home for some repairs and I went to go pick it up. It looks awesome!! You can not even tell there was anything wrong with it except the key mark that will be there till the end of time. The inside of my car has never looked so awesome and clean because my awesome family had it detailed. I can not even explain how awesome it was just to get away and go home for the weekend. I did not get to do everything I wanted to while I was home but, what I did get to do was totally worth the drive. Pretty much I just spent time with my family who I have been missing so much and luckily got to have a cousin date with my cuz. I also made it home to go to my little brothers Birthday party. I was so glad to get to celebrate with him even though it was not on his actual Birthday. Thank the Lord for long drives and going home.

Daughtry - Home

Ohio, Ohio, OOOOHHHIIIIIOOOOOO

Currently listening to Pink Raise your Glass

So spur of the moment trip to Ohio was totally worth the 7 hours I was in the car. Tonight I got to have a fun night with my little brother. I have missed him so much and he always knows how to make me laugh. We were driving home tonight and he yells out ghost ride the whip and throws his car in reverse, this is why I miss Ohio and him so much. Also I had such a relaxing time in the car ,I needed that, I was able to just sing at the top of my lungs, roll down the windows, and enjoy beautiful Virginia in the fall. All the trees were perfectly tinted red, orange, and yellow. All the different shades of these colors were amazing and painted a beautiful landscape for me to enjoy on my way home. So far this weekend trip is a success, tomorrow morning I am going to meet my cousin for an early lunch before she goes to work and I can't wait. Then Sunday I get to go see all my family while we celebrate my little little brothers birthday!!! I am so glad I made this trip!!!! Yeah to making my own fall break!!!!


Why I love this random weekend


#1 The cold- I love that Ohio got the memo that it does not need to be 80 degrees out. Yeah Circle K coffee #2 Brother sister dates- I love my little brother he is a stitch#3 Getting to just sit around and talk to my family- so much better than skype#4 Gifts- Even if I don't get them till Christmas#5 Getting to see my Best Friend- It has not happened yet but it will

Happiness - You Are A Good Man Charlie Brown

Happiness is morning and evening daytime nighttime too

Happiness is morning and evening daytime nighttime too, for happiness is anyone or anything at all that's loved by you!!!!

Found a fortune

So I wonder if it counts if you find a fortune and it does not come from the cookie. The other day I swear there was nothing in the floor when I sat down and before I got up I found a little slip of paper. I read it and it said that you have a great month ahead of you. I was super excited, not that I believe in fortunes being the end all be all of what happens in my life but it just made me really encouraged. I have convinced myself that this fortune is so true this month is going to be awesome and I already have plans as to what will be in this awesome month.

What awesome things will happen this month

#1 I will get the thing I want most


#2 I will bring my grades up in theory and aural skills


#3 I won't get sick


#4 I will pass my sophomore hearing


#5 I will wake up for all my classes

Someone to watch over me

Currently listening to The Sound of Music

Sorry for not posting yesterday I was definitely planning on it but I feel asleep at 9. I know I am lame lol but today I am currently watch the Oprah sound of music special :) Last night I cooked dinner for a bunch of friends which is pretty much my favorite thing to do. I am a hostess. I love to clean my house, cook, and serve people. I just love giving people a place to go off campus and just have fun. Hopefully I succeeded. I am so excited to be taking a spur of the moment trip home tomorrow. I can not wait for this 6 hour car ride to be over and to see my family I miss them all so much. Especially my little brothers since I have not seen them in a while. Also there has been so many questions running through my mind right now. It just seems like nothing is going right, right now and the only escape I have is music. I love knowing that no matter what happens or how upset I am music will always be there. I was so glad to go in my voice lesson today after a stressful day of running out of gas and being late to class and just vent through my songs. I love how musical theater is so expressive and allows a person to put all of their emotion into the meaning of the lyrics. One of my songs that has really been sticking with me is a classic.

"Someone to Watch Over Me"

There’s a saying old, says that love is blind
Still we’re often told, "seek and ye shall find"
So I’m going to seek a certain lad I’ve had in mind

Looking everywhere, haven’t found him yet
He’s the big affair I cannot forget
Only man I ever think of with regret

I’d like to add his initial to my monogram
Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There’s a somebody I’m longin’ to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who’ll watch over me

I’m a little lamb who’s lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who’ll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key

Won’t you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

JAR OF HEARTS


I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half a life
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half a life
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Listening to Everybody by Inrid Michaelson

So today's blog is another total it would happen to me moment lol so this morning when I went into school at 8:00 half of the rot lot was coned off and luckily for me there was one spot left in the front that had not been marked off but there was a car halfway in my spot but I parked a little crooked and went into to class. When I came back out at the end of my day to my car I found 2 really awesome notes. At first I was super mad about them but then I just could not stop laughing Really? we are in college? I had no freaking idea because last time I checked adults don't leave notes on peoples cars like a 5 year old. I love rude and inconsiderate people. Other than this awesome ending to my day today was pretty good I had some tears tonight because I was reminded again that this is my last season of guard :( Tomorrow I am so excited I have Hayfest and my group is so ready to do our life cycle of Britney Spears. My baby one more time costume is super awesome and I am so excited to bust it out and our epic mashup of Britney music.
:)Also for those of you who have not realized I put the music I am listening to at the top of every blog post I make. And today I am in an extremely musical mood. Maria Mena is an artist that I am loving right now thanks to an awesome friend for sending her my way!!!!

Your Glasses Lyrics

What could you possibly see in me? Is my soul hung out to dry? I think my dysfunctional family has shaped it throughout my life. What could you possibly like in me? Do you like my ability to bend? I think my fear of intimacy has shaped the time we spend. No it's not you, it's me and it's not us, it's them and it's not her, it's just the way she moves you? and she kisses harder than me, oh she kisses harder than me. And I've always looked in through your glasses, but all I could see, is the specter of me reflected the empty shell of me, the empty shell of me. What could you possibly love in me? Is it the way I wear my smile? It hangs from the tip of my tongue you see, oh this might take awhile. No it's not you, it's me and it's not us, it's them sure it's not her, it's just the way she moves you? and she kisses harder than me, oh she kisses harder than me. And I've always looked in through your glasses, but all I could see, is the specter of me reflected the empty shell of me, the empty shell of me. ooooooh, ooooh- aahhh, me, oooooh, oooh, me- ooooh ooooh, me- oh, oh, oh, oh, ooooooh And I've always looked in through your glasses, but all I could see, is the specter of me reflected the empty shell of me, the empty shell of me. And I've tried to look in through your glasses, but all I could see, was the specter of me reflected, the empty shell of me, the empty shell of me. :)

5 quotes for the day


"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
— Audrey Hepburn

I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death
Philippians 1:20

Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.
Oscar Wilde

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." — Marilyn Monroe

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.
C.S Lewis

family, friends, and fantastic dresses

FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND FANTASTIC DRESSES

currently listening to death cab for cutie

Today I woke up missing my family. There are days when I just want to bring Columbus here and that day was most definitely today so I kept myself busy like I do on these days. I was happy to get a phone call from Mom and Grandma and got to text Daddy, I was so excited to hear from my cousin too. But I had to do something that I absolutely hate doing cancel on something I have really been wanting to do. I have been so excited because my friend Beth had asked me to be a walk on in one of her episodes of Lynchburg 24502. I was so excited but at the last minute I had to cancel due to some health issues. I was super sad because I have been begging her for a while to put me in the show and now I feel like I have let her down and I hate letting people down. But if I did not take care of this now I would not have been able to go to school in the morning:( on the upside before I started feeling to horrible today I accomplished a lot I got to hang out with one of my girls that I have not been able to hang out with in so long. Me and Miss. Emily just chatted, cooked, and caught up on each others lives. I have missed that girl so much we meet freshman year and have been friends ever since. I love the kind of friends that you know will always be there even if you don't see them for months you can meet up catch up and be right back to were you were before. I also got to got to shop for a bit with Sara for some wedding planning society cloths. I got the most awesome dress!!!! So I have to say this was an awesome Sunday that is now ending in watching my favorite movie Devil Wears Prada with 2 of my favorite girls Ashley and Shara who are tolerating my drugged state. I am also praying for Kristen and missing my best friend ever Kimmy. Compared to 2 days ago today was very eventful!!!!!


TOP 5 THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO

#1 Thanksgiving #2 When its cold enough to wear a scarf every day #3 Seeing my best friend #4 Getting to work when I go home #5 CHRISTMAS

BEST OF SHOW

currently listening to someone to watch over me

WHAT EVERY GUARD GIRL NEEDS


A good makeup remover- this is the life of guard
A good pair of guard gloves- once they are worn in you never want to throw them away or get new ones :)

A really good mascara- I love lash stiletto but there are so many more awesome ones.

A bright blush- Its fun to see guards were you can see their face from the press box

Bobby pins- they are helpful for flyaway's, broken zippers, and so much more. One should always be on hand.

Sparkles- ooo shiny!!!

Glitter hairspray- it's guard and glitter need I say more

Aqua net- Only the best hairspray known to man, it could hold my hair in a hurricane

An infallible lip color- this brand is awesome so guardy's this will last all game!!!


The perfect eyeshadow- my favorite is the body shop tones I have a silver from them that ROCKS

Today was awesome!!! The USSBA competition was crazy and now I am really exhausted but I do have something to share. I HAD MY BEST SHOW EVER!!!! I finished the show and could not stop smiling and crying lol I was so overjoyed to have such and awesome individual performance. Guard is definitely my passion and today inspired me again to want go out for a DCI core and to become a guard adjudicator, I feel like it is something I am called to be doing. God has placed a huge passion on my heart about colorguard it is my life and love it so much, like I have said before I don't know what I will do with out it. As a whole the marching band also did really well :) and I got to spend the whole day with old friends and make new ones. I really enjoy just getting to hang out with my friends, since sometimes I get so busy that I just don't have time for them and when I am not busy they are . I also got to be a band guide for an awesome high school Radford. They were so small but did awesome and there guard was legit. I loved getting to spend the day guiding and helping them prepare for their performance. Today was so long and insane but a gallon of hairspray buckets of glitter and pounds of makeup later this day was definitively a success.

an uneventful day

currently listening to The Carpenters

Today was super uneventful. Which was awesome! It felt great to have a day were all I did was go to one class, sing, and then go off to band. I love relaxing days!!!! If only tomorrow was going to be as calm and I could sleep in, but that is only a wish. Tomorrow the marching band is hosting a USSBA marching competition. Pretty much this is were a bunch of high school bands come and compete to go to states at my University, then at the end we perform as a "treat" or something like that to the other bands. Sorry you all had to read about my uneventful day :(


4 most interesting things in an uneventful day

#1 going to Panera only to discover it was to crowded so going to Ruby Tuesdays instead#2 realizing it is time to buy a belt!!!! Because none of my pants are staying up!!!!#3 seeing more car accidents in an uneventful day that I do in any other day#4 having the best singing in the shower concert ever!!!!

happiness and fears

Sharing my Happiness and Fears!!!

Listening to the Britney mix-down I made today for hayfest!!!!!

How is it that music can affect you so much? Today in my voice lesson I was practicing a song for NATS called So Anyway from Next to Normal and on the last verse I found myself in tears. She sings the line, "I loved you once and though, you love me still I know, it's time for me to fly, I love you once and though, I love you still I know, it's time for me to go and so goodbye." At that point I really connected the the character in a way that is deeper than empathy I became her and took on her emotion. It was an awesome crazy feeling that every actor wants to experience. I am so excited to compete this year and take a piece that really touches my heart and hopefully the judges.
Why do I care so much about what other people do or think? The actions of others do nothing but bug me sometimes. There are days like today were I just only want to be around a certain circle of people. Or, why do I let one person ruin my day? Just hearing or not hearing from someone can take my day and turn it into a complete mess. I am a planner and I hate not sticking to my plan. Like when I get sick, it without a doubt ceases to amaze me that I can always be sick at the most inconvenient time. Like last night at 3am when I woke up screaming in stomach pain and shaking. I have no idea why or what caused this but it was crazy. And since I had just watched the ring of course I was convinced that I was surly dying. Then when I finally made it to bed at 6am and woke up for my class a t 7 my sugar was low and I was still feeling really sick :( I hate how this is always the case.

Sorry for everyone who got there hopes up about my wedding planning training session today because it is not actually today it is next Thursday apparently I have an issue reading the calender. So, info to come next week lol but tonight I did go to scaremare which was successfully scary and apparently I knew over half the people even though in those masks I don't know who all of them are. They kept whispering my name creepy right? But compared to the ring it was nothing. What it was, was a group of amazing friends just hanging out and I loved that. Tonight I got to see people I see everyday and people I have not seen in a while. All in all today was eventful!!!!! Also for those who read this whole thing ask me about the amazing pick up line I came up with...it can't be posted lol

TOP 5 THINGS I AM SCARED OF

#1 Birds(especially peacocks, so much so it scared me to find a photo) #2 Being alone-(just for a little while or forever it's a scary thing) #3 loosing my voice(little mermaid style, if I could not sing I would die) #4 Samara (this face scares me so much I can't even look at it I keep scanning past it quickly)

#5 Small dark places(I don't like being cornered or locked in anywhere)